you can see my heart beating....

Take a breath, take it deep
"Calm yourself," he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take the gun, and count to three
I'm sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

Say a prayer to yourself
He says, "Close your eyes, sometimes it helps"
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here means he's never lost

And you can see my heart beating
Oh, you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
Know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye
But it's too late to think of the value of my life

And you can see my heart beating
Oh, you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no
Know that I must pass this test

You can see my heart beating
Oh, you can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no
Know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger

geram giler aku arini!!!! arghhhhhhhh!!!!

geram giler aku arini... kisahnye camni, pagi tadi aku sibuk layan budak2... pastu nak bagi keselamatan terjamin, aku letaklaa hanpon aku kat atas almari budak2 yang tingginye paras bahu aku tu... pastu aku sibuk2 wat keje... tetibe ada bunyi pangggg!!!! ada benda terjatuh... pastu kawan sekerja aku cakap laa.. "haaaaaaaaa... da jatuh da hanpon... xtau.. ayoooo!!! xtau...ape qish da buat...." aku pon cepat2 laa g kat tempat kejadian n terus kata... "haaa!!! nape tu? sape yg buat???" rupe2nye hanpon aku terhempas jatuh... pastu aku naik hangin laa.. apa lagi... aku tangkap qish pastu aku pelok dia sampai dia nangis... hahahah... puas ati aku... geram aku... screen hanpon aku da rosakkk... hurmmm... hanpon tu banyak berjasa ngn aku... da 2 tahun lebih da aku gune hp tu... huh... penat tu... tu hasil titik peloh aku, aku beli... ermm.. pastu tengahari tu qish ni xnak tdo lak.. leh siap men gelak2... ape lagi.. aku ngusik laa dia.. aku leraikan rambut panjang aku... pastu wat2 cam antu.. tp dia xtakut lak.. leh siap gelak2 lagi... pastu aku ape lagi... amik rambut aku, saje2 wat lilit2 kat dia... pastu duk goyang2... dia gelak tp dalam masa sama dia nak nangis.. pastu aku ape lagi suh dia tido n kata kat dia..." kalo x tdo nanti antu tu amik dia gigit dia... lilit dia...hahahaha..." puas ati aku.. dia trus tutup mata... heheheeh... brutal gak aku ngn budak2... huhuhu...

sedey....

sedey.... hurmmmmmm

broken hearted girl...

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

hati aku rasa sedih sangat....

ntahlaaa... semalam aku terasa sangat... aku xtau laa nape aku terasa sangat... hurm... aku sayang sangat kat dia... nape perlu dia wat aku rasa sedih? aku xtau laa... ape lagi perlu aku lakukan... aku nak happy dengan dia... memang aku happy... tp dalam happy pon aku sedih... aku nak dia.. aku nak dia sampai bile2... cume.. aku nak tau ape lagi yang dia simpan rahsia ngn aku lagi? gerak ati aku kuat yg mengatakan dia ada lagi simpan rahsia... sekarang aku da buka buku baru dengan dia... tp nape perlu dia ingat lagi kisah silam? dia semdiri suh aku lupekan ape yang penah berlaku dlu... tp dia juga bercerita n cerita pasal kenangan manis dia bersama org tu... aku xdapat nak kata ape2... n aku xbleh buat ape2 da... kalo aku marah pon dia akan kata aku ungkit kisah silam... aku xnak... aku xnak jadi camtu... better aku diam.. tp aku sedih... dia seolah2 macam nak membalas dendam je... aku redha kalo ini takdir aku... takdir aku derita... pembalasan aku dengan ape yang da penah aku buat kat dia slama nie... ntahlaa... aku konfius n sedih... aku nak dia tp aku rasakan yang dia semakin jauh dengan aku... bukan semakin dekat.... memang aku ngaku dulu aku ada perasaan kat kawan dia tp aku pikir... aku pikir xnak ati aku terluka n xnak orang lain pon sakit... aku terkilan ngn ape yang dia kata kat aku td... kalo nak terus kan teruskanla... kalo xnak xpe... boleh pegi jek... hurmmm... knape? ape salah aku lagi???? aku tahan jek... aku xnak gado... sekarang ni pon mata aku ni xnak berhenti dari mengalirkan air mata... aku xtau nape jadi camni? dia memang xleh nak lepaskan lagi kisah silam dia...aku sedih... aku buntu... hanya tuhan saja tahu perasaan aku skang nie... maafkan aku kalo aku ni jenis berterus terang...hurmmm.....